Kate Middleton’s brother James reveals he was ‘suicidal,’ considered jumping off a rooftop in London
Kate Middleton’s brother, James Middleton, is sharing his mental health struggles in his upcoming memoir, “Meet Ella: The Dog Who Saved My Life.”
James, 37, revealed that he previously dealt with suicidal thoughts in an excerpt from his book published by the Daily Mail Friday.
“Life is no longer worth living. I feel suicidal. I contemplate ways of dying so I can get off the giddy roller-coaster that is sending me to the brink of madness,” he wrote.
James continued, “I feel misunderstood; a complete failure. I wouldn’t wish the sense of worthlessness and desperation, the isolation and loneliness, on my worst enemy. I think I’m going crazy.”
He noted that he’s “privileged” and “fortunate” with his “loving and close-knit family” that includes his parents Carole and Michael Middleton, sisters Kate and Pippa and brother-in-laws Prince William and James Matthews.
“But I push them all away,” James said. “I do not answer their phone calls. Emails remain ignored. Invitations to visit go unheeded. I hide behind a double-locked door, unreachable.”
The Princess of Wales’ brother recalled reaching his “lowest ebb” one night in November 2017 where he considered killing himself by jumping from the rooftop of a building in London.
“Dark thoughts crowd in on me. What can I do to make them stop? I think about jumping from the rooftop. Who would find me? A passing taxi-driver? A neighbour?” he wrote.
“I wonder, if I jump, could it possibly be construed as a tragic accident? That way my family, although they would grieve desperately, would be spared the added torture of knowing that I had ended my life by suicide.”
But James said his dog, Ella, inspired him to not go through with the suicide attempt.
